This is my first time writing a blog and well, I'm not exactly what you call net savvy...knowing my luck I'll somehow be the first person in the world since the invention of the internet to actually break a blog somehow.
Its probably a good idea to introduce myself, I'm 25, female and from the UK, and recently like millions of other people, I found myself sans job. Laid off because there just wasn't enough work coming in. So here I turn to blogging to get my mind of things, and ironically enough, I find myself in a good place. I have time now to really collect my thoughts and really think about what I want whilst helping out in the family restaurant.
Its an odd age 25, its almost like an in between world, your no longer a student but then your not quite fully an adult, you think you know what you want but society says that you should start giving back to the economy by getting a job, become more mature as you know have to think about how to pay off your loans, taxes are now needed to be paid...Gone is the freedom of being a student, when you went out every night partying and staggering into the lecture theatre still drunk from the night before.
I actually miss those days sometimes, it true when they say that University is the best years of your life, because they absolutely are. You didn't have any worries about money, or needing a job, you worked because you wanted to not because you particularly had too. But now? Now its a case of your degree being obsolete, trying to make ends meet because everybody is in the same boat as you...Able to work but stuck because what they were trained to do in the first place is now no longer useful. But you take comfort where you can get it, comfort in the fact that everyone else is in the same boat as you...comfort in the fact that yes, you still have your health, but comfort can only take you so far because the reality is, is that you may never find work, at least not while the economic climate is still the way it is, the reality is, is that while your wondering where to find the money to buy a loaf of bread that has yet again gone up in price, the only jobs available are the ones that are easy to get, and you don't have any choice but to take them because simple things like food have to be paid for, mortgages and debts won't reduce simply because you can't afford to pay them.
Yes I'll freely admit, I am cynical, incredibly so. But with good reason, cynicism keeps me sharp, it keeps me aware and most of all, cynicism doesn't surprise me at every turn. Cynicism doesn't keep me awake at night worrying when my next pay check is coming in, it keeps me one step ahead of the game. It doesn't allow for airy fairy notions but instead it keeps me grounded in the reality and while this blog may seem angry and frustrated, it really isn't. Emotions can't be interpreted on the web and so its easy to misconstrue, misinterpret, but instead its better to read this entry and keep it at face value, at the end of the day, I can't please everyone nor do I expect to. In fact chances are I'll probably anger more people then actually please but that's just the way life goes. So, you know what? I am going to take whatever life throws at me and keep my chin up because I know that this too shall pass and I'll come out the other end a better and wiser person for it.
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